Our journey so far…
November 2011
- 27: There were two in the garden… (2)
October 2011
- 26: Four days, four years (4)
September 2011
- 17: On the fifteenth (0)
- 13: The other way around (2)
August 2011
- 30: Missing (4)
July 2011
- 23: Birthday daisies (0)
- 05: The words she spoke (0)
June 2011
- 29: For Abigail (2)
- 28: Stronger because of you (0)
- 23: In his thoughts (0)
- 22: Boys on the patio (0)
- 20: Amazing women (0)
- 19: New beginnings (2)
April 2011
- 23: An impulse visit (2)
March 2011
- 31: Realms unknown (0)
- 23: Tonight I feel like writing a letter… (0)
- 20: Another arrival (0)
February 2011
December 2010
November 2010
- 23: Cake for Cam (3)
- 01: Light on words (0)
September 2010
- 19: The storm (7)
- 16: Spectator (0)
- 15: Three years (0)
- 14: For now, I wait. (0)
- 13: Saving my tears for Spring (2)
June 2010
- 30: With love (1)
May 2010
- 19: Betrayal (1)
- 16: Invisible. Intangible. (2)
March 2010
- 05: But he is not (0)
- 03: He will never change (0)
- 02: It should’ve been three (3)
February 2010
- 27: As a family should be (1)
- 19: C is for Cameron (0)
- 11: Our third, not our second (0)
September 2009
- 23: Another little boy (2)
- 21: Flutters (0)
- 19: You (1)
- 16: Happy second birthday, Cameron (2)
- 15: Our special place (0)
- 15: He came so close (1)
- 14: Today, I am weary (2)
- 13: The end of life as we knew it (1)
- 11: Elsewhere for eternity (0)
- 05: The innocence of Spring (2)
- 04: Always anchored (2)
- 02: For Jet (0)
August 2009
June 2009
- 30: The bond that you form (2)
- 28: Yes, they are common (2)
- 18: Maybe it’s just not realistic (2)
May 2009
- 16: Our new reality (3)
- 12: Thomas is his name (7)
March 2009
- 16: Glorious (1)
- 15: A year and a half ago (2)
- 13: Choice (1)
- 10: Already there (0)
- 06: Our family of four (0)
- 03: Would’ve… (0)
- 01: Cameron’s legacy (0)
February 2009
- 28: His grief (0)
- 27: Life beheld (0)
- 24: Acceptance and trust (0)
- 22: Growing resilience (0)
- 16: Seventeen (0)
- 13: Awake and remembering (1)
- 07: Life continues (1)
- 06: Wherever we go (0)
- 05: Precious little words (0)
- 03: Where he belongs (0)
January 2009
- 19: Photographic memory (0)
- 16: A child’s lifetime (0)
- 14: Brothers’ names (0)
- 13: Slipping away (0)
- 12: How do we tell them? (0)
- 07: Thin air (0)
- 05: His perfect smile (0)
- 05: Crystal clear memories (0)
December 2008
- 30: A familiar visitor (0)
- 29: One image (0)
- 27: Holding my tummy (0)
- 23: Hidden (0)
- 21: A perfect place (0)
- 18: His tears (0)
- 17: Outburst (0)
- 16: Sitting in the dark (0)
- 15: Thirteen months apart (0)
- 14: Striking similarity (0)
- 13: Double the joy, double the pain (0)
- 06: Same questions (0)
November 2008
- 30: Hard not to fear (0)
- 09: Forever our firstborn (0)
- 08: A simple question (0)
- 03: Touched (0)
- 01: Missed out (0)
October 2008
- 28: If only (0)
- 26: His sadness (0)
- 24: Home (0)
- 23: One absent (0)
- 23: Separated (0)
- 20: Different endings (0)
- 18: Will others understand? (1)
- 17: We still don’t know (0)
- 16: This journey will not end (0)
- 15: Fears and uncertainties (0)
- 14: Is there anyone out there? (0)
- 13: Confronting feelings (0)
- 13: Full of anxiety (0)
- 10: Twenty-two months (0)
- 07: Removed (0)
- 06: Painful guilt (0)
- 05: How is it possible? (0)
- 04: A terrible scare (0)
- 03: Grieving and counselling (0)
- 03: Infuriating (0)
- 02: Music that speaks (2)
- 01: Two visions (0)
September 2008
- 30: Impossible not to… (0)
- 30: A brief encounter (0)
- 30: Photos and albums (0)
- 29: Maternal instinct? (0)
- 27: He is mine (0)
- 26: On the same shelf (0)
- 25: A time for everything (0)
- 24: Memories of Brickfield (0)
- 23: Why are there no words? (0)
- 22: Parallel life (0)
- 21: Don’t want to leave him behind (0)
- 19: Yellow fresia buds (0)
- 18: A fitting end? (0)
- 17: Those two words (0)
- 17: 25) Interment: Rhonda’s letter (0)
- 17: 24) Interment: Prayer by Masons’ (0)
- 17: 23) Interment: Bible readings (0)
- 17: 22) Interment: Rick’s address (0)
- 17: Precious, heartbreaking moments (1)
- 16: More than a year apart (0)
- 15: Never coming home (0)
- 15: Nothing more to be done (0)
- 15: Spring is here again… (0)
- 13: Unexpected refreshment (0)
- 12: This time last year (0)
- 09: A worthy leader (0)
- 08: Waiting to be opened (0)
- 07: Father of my children (0)
- 05: Insurmountable pain (0)
- 05: Being left behind (0)
- 04: My precious, first child (1)
- 04: Watching, accepting (0)
- 03: Out and about again (0)
August 2008
- 28: Up close… (1)
- 27: Frustrated and upset (0)
- 26: Tears in bed (0)
- 25: 21) It is done (0)
- 24: Both my children (0)
- 24: 20) Finally… (0)
- 23: In bed with Angus (0)
- 23: Hibernation (0)
- 22: Chinese reflex (0)
- 21: Pleasant and carefree (0)
- 21: Lovely visit (0)
- 20: I can be me (0)
- 20: Making progress (0)
- 19: Heartbeat (0)
- 18: Plagued by blame (0)
- 18: It is done (0)
- 17: Heartache and sickness (0)
- 16: Weary and numb (0)
- 16: In my lap (0)
- 15: Finally… (0)
- 15: Eleven months (0)
- 14: Strange transition (0)
- 14: Cameron’s resting place (0)
- 13: Tomorrow… (0)
- 11: Parental understanding (0)
- 09: Yum cha and shabu shabu (0)
- 07: Why? (0)
July 2008
- 28: I love my family (0)
- 27: Such is life (0)
- 26: A wonderful family (0)
- 25: Fantasy escape (0)
- 24: How did this come to pass (0)
- 23: Hit (0)
- 21: Lost forever (0)
- 19: Never (0)
- 16: This is our life (1)
- 15: You just never forget (0)
- 12: A rich week (0)
- 07: Greg and Cameron (0)
- 05: A precious conversation (0)
- 04: A letter to two special friends (0)
- 04: How were we to know? (0)
- 03: Peace and anger (0)
- 02: A letter to close friends (0)
- 02: The darkness continues (1)
- 02: Hurt (0)
- 01: Darkness returns (1)
June 2008
- 30: Rare sunshine (0)
- 26: Mother and daughter (0)
- 25: A mother’s desperate fear (3)
- 24: Further devastation and anger (1)
- 23: Bad news (0)
- 23: Hurts too much (0)
- 22: Songs, tears and comfort (0)
- 21: One fine day (0)
- 20: Darkness and a glimpse of sunshine (0)
- 17: Ripped apart (2)
- 17: Just let me be… (0)
- 14: Our two little boys (0)
- 13: Precious sisters (0)
- 05: He never got to see us… (5)
- 05: Unique and special (0)
May 2008
- 30: Resentment, bitterness and pain (0)
- 29: The blur of time (0)
- 29: God’s infinite goodness (0)
- 29: Imagery and reality (0)
- 29: Sad and low (0)
- 27: Why do you ignore our pain? (1)
- 23: Grieving and rejoicing (0)
- 18: Tears at church (0)
- 15: Audrey or Angus? (0)
- 11: The pain of Mother’s Day (1)
April 2008
- 29: Relief and sadness (0)
- 06: For good (0)
- 04: Another beating heart (0)
- 02: Audrey and Angus (0)
March 2008
- 26: She is gone (0)
- 17: The importance of understanding and mourning with us (0)
- 16: I remember you (0)
- 12: Devastation (1)
- 12: Yearnings (0)
- 07: My wish list (0)
- 02: Sharing the news (0)
- 01: New life (0)
February 2008
- 17: Tears and comfort (2)
- 16: He would’ve been five months old (0)
- 15: Wailing (0)
- 14: Why, God, why? (0)
- 13: Why avoid the topic (0)
- 13: Looking on from our window (0)
- 11: A weekend of comfort and encouragement (0)
- 05: Release (0)
- 04: My resolve (0)
- 04: Inexplicable (0)
- 01: Love and pain, parent and child (0)
January 2008
- 30: Lonely (0)
- 29: Very low, very hollow (0)
- 23: Harsh expectations (0)
- 22: Every day is a sad day (0)
- 21: Ashes… (0)
- 20: Powerful hymns (0)
- 18: Negative results (0)
- 16: The pit (0)
- 14: There is no Cameron (0)
December 2007
- 30: So awful, so cruel (0)
- 28: This is Cameron’s time (0)
- 17: Memories and whispers (0)
- 16: Tears and longings (0)
- 16: Three months ago (1)
- 07: Wonderfully sad (0)
- 05: Rock bottom (1)
- 03: A rendez-vouz with an old friend (0)
- 02: Singing through endless days (0)
- 01: Close to my heart (1)
- 01: The peace of God (0)
November 2007
- 17: So much beauty, yet so much sorrow (0)
- 13: Our house of mourning (0)
- 10: The blessing of children (2)
- 07: Fears and pleas (0)
- 06: An entire lifetime (1)
- 04: A grey weekend (0)
- 01: We can never go back (0)
- 01: From conception to heaven (0)
October 2007
- 31: A scary realisation (0)
- 30: Remembering Cameron’s identity (0)
- 28: Simply subdued (0)
- 27: Strangely isolating (0)
- 26: Roast, crumble and chocolate (0)
- 25: Coping with the emptiness (0)
- 25: Being strong? (0)
- 25: Not the answer (0)
- 24: Trapped and suffocated (0)
- 22: Our weekend away (0)
- 21: Mummy’s tummy (0)
- 21: What do I see? (4)
- 19: Haunting relief (0)
- 18: Cameron’s heavenly house (0)
- 18: Waves of despair (0)
- 17: A terrible letter (0)
- 16: The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away (0)
- 15: Alone with love songs (0)
- 14: Why does life still go on? (0)
- 13: It’s physical (0)
- 13: Hard to bear (0)
- 12: Working with grief (0)
- 12: One day at a time (0)
- 11: Encouragement, sadness and names (0)
- 10: Just another day (0)
- 09: God’s goodness (0)
- 09: Desperation (0)
- 08: 19) A letter for Cameron (0)
- 08: Accepting reality (0)
- 07: Lamentations (0)
- 06: An old way of life (0)
- 06: Panicking from remembering (0)
- 05: Getting real about grief (0)
- 05: A background of sadness (0)
- 05: Emptiness and fear (0)
- 05: Cameron’s room (0)
- 05: Why is Cameron in heaven? (0)
- 05: Getting real about grief (0)
- 03: 18) Hospital video clip 2 (0)
- 03: 17) Hospital video clip 1 (0)
- 02: 16) Our message to Cameron (0)
- 02: 15) Cameron’s memorial postcard (0)
- 02: 13) Memorial: Musical selection (0)
- 02: 07) Memorial: Bible readings (0)
- 02: 08) Memorial: Charlie’s address (0)
- 02: 11) Memorial: Prayer by Jane (0)
- 02: 10) Memorial: Prayer by Mike (0)
- 02: 09) Memorial: Group prayers (0)
- 02: 05) Memorial: Service details (0)
- 02: 02) Funeral: Service details (0)
- 02: 14) Memorial: Ben’s conclusion (0)
- 02: 06) Memorial: Ben’s introduction (0)
- 02: 04) Funeral: Musical selection (0)
- 02: 03) Funeral: Charlie’s address (0)
- 02: Thank you to many (0)
- 02: 12) Memorial: Our eulogy (0)
- 02: 01) Our email about Cameron (3)
- 01: Last night I dreamt again… (0)
September 2007
- 30: Angry and responsible (1)
- 29: The valley of the shadow of death (0)
- 28: Doing ‘normal’ stuff (0)
- 27: Every moment hurts (0)
- 26: Meaningless, it’s all meaningless (0)
- 25: Every hour is so hard… (0)
{ 2 comments… read them below or add one }
I just read your acticle in todays paper and I cried and cried – I myself have not suffered your loss but have 2 small children and could not imagine your pain and loss, also to say thankyou for talking about what u need and dont need from friends – i have known a few people whom also suffered same loss but I always say sorry for your loss and get teary. So thankyou and I wish you and your family all the best in future.
Thank you Kylie for reading and for your tears. xo